Wonders How Long It is going to go on for!!!

After being on holidays for two weeks i was looking forward to going back to work. Wednesday came around and i arrived at work at 8.50am like i am supposed to, my boss arrived a short time later and told me that she wanted to talk to me about a few things today but doesn't want to talk about it until the afternoon, i was not to sure what to make of it at first but then when she hardly spoke to me all day (just when she needed something to be done) i felt as though what ever it she was going to talk to me about must have been bad. I called darren at lunch time (what little time i get!) to tell him about my day. Once our last client left at around 4.15pm sh*t hit the fan you could say, i was told that i was a really horrible person to work with and that i don't do my job well, and also that i am taking advantage of her (how i don't know, i did ask but couldn't be given an anwer). I was told that i had to go to work on Thursday happy and bubbly (which i felt i did) and i also made a point of speaking to the nail artist because i was told that i didn't do that either., i just got one word answers. (they can't say i didn't try, which i probably know they will). I went to work and did everything i was told to do and even a little more and by the time home time came around on Thursday night i was exhausted. I cried all the way home as i just felt so uncomfortable.
I tried to be really nice to her all day on Friday and i just got one word answers and it was the same yesterday also. I even msged her and asked her if she wanted a coffee from the coffee shop, i was trying to be nice!!!

i sometimes wonder if i should just throw in the towl and go back to an office job, but the thing is i really enjoy doing hairdressing......

I am looking forward to going to TAFE on monday because sometime i feel as though i learn a bucket load more there!!!

That's about it!!

As i sit here and wonder how much longer it will go on for!!!!!

Dream or Nightmare

Last night at about 11.30pm i was sound asleep and Darren came to bed and scared the life out of me when he was going to bed...
But then at 1.30am i had this horrible dream, it kind of goes like this...

I was with my family in a hospital as mum had organised to have my sister executed, we spent a few hours with my sister before she was taken away to be given the injection to make her go to sleep forever, she went and then i saw her walk out of the room where she had the injection and mum said to me that she had made a mistake and should never had done it, i screamed and ran after my sister and told her that this is not going to happen we are going to make the injection she had stop and she's not going to die. I sat with her on a couch and craddled her like a baby telling her to stay awake and it will all be ok, mum came in and took my sister into a toilet cubicle and i screamed at her where is the Dr and she said she was coming....i kept screaming at my sister to stay awake, mum had closed the door on me and i screamed at mum to tell me when the Dr was coming, a few seconds later i looked under the door to find my sister dead on the floor....
I then woke up i could not handle any more of it i woke up crying my eyes out, i was so glad i wasn't home alone...

This dream was so vivid i don't know why......

it took me another 3 hours to go back to sleep properly every time i closed my eyes i would see my sister laying on the floor so peaceful....

Smile for the Camera!!!

It was the morning of Lachlan's pre-school photos. I had told him for a week prior that he would be having school photos and he was very excited on the day when i said Today is the day of your photos Lachlan. he said to me, Mummy i will promise to smile for the camera....

Well here you can see here for yourself, he did keep to his promise....

He came home on the day with a hand made camera from a teabag box and a cardboard cyclinder and a piece of string so it could go around his next, taking photos of every one that would stand still for just a split second.

I can not believe that he is growing up so fast, he will be 4 next month, my goodness where has the time gone!!!

sick sick sick

It all started on Friday night with both boys coughing and splattering...Was woken a few times during the night with Owen coughing and waking up because of it. He ate his breakfast the next day but then brought it all back up again... Darren said he was off colour pretty much all day and didn't eat lunch either. I came home from work to find that Owen had chucked in his bed and he was in the lounge room watching Dora while Darren was cleaning up his bed. He was really not himself until bed time, we gave them a bath early because we were having Darren's parents for dinner. I sat on the lounge and then Owen came to sit on my lap and with hin 15 mins he was out like a light, he had a temp of 38. We had a bit of a rough night with both of them. At 5pm on Sunday i had had enough of them coughing and whinging so we took them to the after hours Dr at C'town hospital and was told that Owen had a viral infection and just give him panadol and dimattap and he should be right in a couple of days. Lachlan had croupe and inflammed tonsils. Owen seemed to be getting better until today, i took him back to the Dr's as i just knew there was something not quite right. And once the Dr had a good listen to his chest, he said he has a chest infection and there is a crackle in his left lung. He is now on antibiotics for the next 2 weeks and then we have to take him back for a check up. Lachlan still has inflammed tonsils and the Dr has given us Bisolvon for his cough.

Owen went down for a nap at 12.20pm he had fallen asleep and about 20mins later woke up coughing and then vomited all over me and thankfully i got him out of his room quick enough to make it land on the tiles instead of the carpet...Tried to put him down again for a sleep but he wouldn't do it. Sat him on my lap and he fell asleep straight away and slept for 2.5hrs...I had all these plans today, i wanted to finish my assignment for TAFE and finish sewing the clips on my hair extensions and clean up a little...Well that never happened...
I was confined to the lounge with a 2yr old on my lap and watching bad day time TV...Well i watched a really old episode of all saints...wasn't to bad..

Off to start organising dinner since i am home alone timm about 9.20pm...

a good day

today was a great day for me, after alot of hard work over the past couple of weeks after putting on 1kgs, i have now lost that weight again and dropped down to 58.3kgs a total loss of 5.3kgs. My aim is to get down to 56.3kgs so just another 2kgs to go.

It hasnt been easy for me but i do have alot of support from my husband which is just wonderful.

I am still going to be the lady who walks around in a bikini at christmas time instead of a fat lady!!

Lachlan said to me last night on our way home from work, That i can not be a hairdresser because i have to be his mummy!!!

This is my sister & i back in january...

My starting weight: 63.6kg

Rebecca's starting weight: 110.3kgs

This is my sister & I on Mothers day May 08

My current weight is: 58.3kgs

Rebecca's current weight is: 89.6kgs

Things kids come out with

I found this quite funny!!!

Me: lachlan pack up the toys before you go to bed

Lachlan: I can't mummy picking up the toys gives me a headache

Me: Start laughing and say come on buddy pick up the toys..

Lachlan: finishes picking up the toys and says "Look mummy it didn't give me a headache i did it all by myself...


Kids are just so adorable at time...

Feel like quitting

After today at TAFE i feel as though i am not making a very good hairdresser, i feel as though i should just throw it in and give up on doing my apprenticeship. Not getting to much encouragment from my work place is also putting me down and i dont think i am getting very far..